Well...I just signed up for this service and thought I would post a blog because of the way I feel and the primary reason that I went ahead and signed up here.

This is my first Christmas without the "grouch"...it's the nicest thing I can say about him really, and it was weird to say the least. I have spent the last 9 Christmas' with him and the last 3 with he and my daughter. It was tough getting all the decorations up by myself (had to have a 8' tree!) and then just thinking that I would be up all night trying to get Santa things done, but it was actually very nice.

Christmas Eve my girl wanted to watch Rudolf (for the 100th time!) and as we were curled up on the sofa under a blanket watching, she fell asleep. I let her sleep a little while and carried her up to bed at 9ish. All the presents were wrapped, so it was just a matter of getting them all under the tree and being ready for the morning.

I was in bed at 10:30 and slept well (which is very unusual for me) and we got up at 8 and had a very peaceful, relaxed Christmas morning.

The 'grouch' eventually called (was suppose to let me know what he wanted to do about Christmas the Saturday before, but I had not heard from him) and said that he wanted to pick her up that night. So we spent the day with my family and opened yet more presents, and finally come home about 5 PM. I missed her that night, but knew that she was enjoying her limited time with her Daddy...so it was okay.

I guess I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for this emotional ride I have been on for about a week now? I spent the next few days a wreck and crying at the drop of a hat....I guess it's normal, but I need to stop blaming myself for his attitude and lack of interest in our home and family. I need help with this!

Anyone??....

....dang Cowboys just lost....figures!